Thursday, June 23, 2016

Work Trial

I'll take the pats on the back - today was my first day back at work in almost three months. And I survived!

Seriously, it was only two hours and I just sat and studied in the lobby. But it is a win, nonetheless.

One of the kids at work decided to ask if I wanted to trade places with her. She would rather have a brain injury than be at work... She obviously thinks it's a great vacation. Kids these days. Oye.

MRI downtown tomorrow.

Free spirit tank sew-a-long hosted by beanpop fabrics starts tomorrow as well. Have the pattern, might have the fabric. Doing it no matter what, lol. Pretty excited about trying out this new pattern. :)

All for now, thanks for stopping by!

~ KSJ

Wednesday, June 22, 2016

Back to Work

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Tomorrow is my first day back at work. And by back at work I mean that I'm sitting in the lobby studying for two hours.

So for the last few days I've basically been  having up and down bouts of anxiety and panic where I sweat buckets, hive and hyperventilate. It's been super great.

Moving along... I spent the last few days making a relaxed fit raglan with an added hoodie. The pattern was pretty easy. It's from patternsforpirates. Really beginning to like their patterns :)

I don't have photos of it yet, but I did make it large enough to go over my work clothes. It's made of lightweight cotton knit and I added the hood so I can have a hidey hole if I need one in the lobby. I like to be prepared lol.

My MRI is booked for Friday evening. My ENT appointment is the 29th. My physio consult is booked for the 30th. I am hopeful there is a solution on the horizon.

Off for the night.

Thanks for reading :)

~ KSJ

Saturday, June 18, 2016

#rescuedogs and #mentalhealth

It's 86 days into a whole new me.

And it's one of THOSE days.

To be completely honest, I don't stink. But I've had trouble getting to the laundry room without my fab sister to make sure no one is lurking around trying to eat me. I'm not actually worried that I'll get eaten, I just have very bad anxiety and can't seem to leave the house alone.

So today, I latched our older girl, a rotti cross we rescued almost eight years ago, to my waist and went down to the laundry room. (Trial run, still couldn't do it without my human!)

Lady Jaye (the dog) did such a good job! She made sure to check the place out before I went in. She sat beside me watching the door the entire time my back was turned. I still shook like a leaf on a blustery day, but nobody ate me.

I think we may be on to something.

If only I could bring her everywhere.

Friday, June 17, 2016

MRI, OITNB, and Brazis :)

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My MRI has been booked for a week today!

(This is exclamation mark worthy, as this is Canada, and my MRI was booked in April for the end of August...)

I've been watching Orange is the new Black like it's some kind of addictive drug. I struggle to remember what's going on and what has happened, but it's so funny.

This morning I forgot what my dogs name is. It's Flint, in case you didn't already know. Easy,  right?  I called him Shane. *Smh*

And below,  you'll see the photo of the (almost) finished brazi top I've been working on this week from the www.stitchuponatime.com - they have a sew-a-long every month on their Facebook page. There's no deadline, it's just good to have something to do with my time.

Thanks for reading :)

~ KSJ

As promised

As promised, here's a photo of the peg legs I made Monday.

For some reason, the blogger app is being finicky, and won't let me post two photos at the same time, so I suppose I'll need to post the brazi in a separate post... Oye. 

Anyway. The pattern is available at www.patternsforpirates.com

It is incredibly user friendly. Make sure you use the right fabric and measure yourself correctly!

Cheers!

~ KSJ

Wednesday, June 15, 2016

T.R.I and Sew

83.

And the counting continues.

I'm apparently not very great at the whole "post every day" thing, but I am doing my best. And usually, I remember at some point that I missed the post. Typically it's the next day, but it's progress.

Yesterday I went to Toronto Rehabilitation Institute (T.R.I) for the first time. Parking was a nightmare. I was a nightmare. Lol. I had to get up early, I hadn't finished sleeping off the night meds, and I really have terrible anxiety. BUT the doctor has assured me that we are going to work on all of this. The balance issues and hearing issues are going to be assessed on the 29th by an ENT at Toronto General Hospital. I feel that this is progress.

Today I had a meeting with my boss and the work transition specialist from WSIB. Both were super awesome. Lost my focus a few times by getting distracted. But the sounds of the kitchen were familiar and comforting in a strange way. I'm looking forward to getting back to work. Work means normal. I may not get normal the way it used to be, but I will accept new normal as long as that incorporates old normal with it.

Sewing wise I made my first pair of peg legs from patterns for pirates. I'm a little behind on the brazi sew a long from stitch upon a time. I have been tired the last few days so just being quiet and resting. I'm struggling to post photos of the fabrics I'm using, and of the peg legs. (Brazi and pegs are same fabric.) Hoping tomorrow I catch up! 

Anyway, night meds are kicking in, and I'm hearing to bed!

Thanks for stopping by :)

~ KSJ

Monday, June 13, 2016

Inner (And Outer!) Battles

Day 81

Last night I was very tired and forgot to post. Really, though, you didn't miss much.

Saturday night I finally decided that I would participate in the stitch upon a time brazi sew a long, so yesterday I printed and pieced the pattern. I also spent six hours with my handy dandy seam ripper, removing stitches from a spoxxy Racerback tank that I made. (Band wasn't sitting right. Too much stretching on my part.)

Today is day two of the sew a long so I need to cut the fabric for it.

I'm hoping to also finish the spoxxy, but I'm still very tired.

Tomorrow is my consult with the rehab clinic, and I need to be downtown before nine in the morning. Esh. Rush hour. No thank you.

Wednesday is a meeting with my boss and my work transition specialist to assess the suitability of the job and potential modifications. Noise is a trigger for me, and my work is very noisy... So we are brainstorming.

I'm still struggling with things, and the actual headaches do not make the struggle any easier. I'm battling a bout of horrible depression to top it all off. I hate feeling useless. I hate that even the simple things are so difficult. Collaring my dog? Getting milk in the coffee?

Every day I push against myself is a win, though, I think.

Anyway, cutting to do!

Thanks for reading :)

~ KSJ